A boy I know...

A boy I know...

I met him in 2008 it wasn't late,

he was 90 ( I guess) and I was 88!

NOT BAD MATE!! :-D

His eagle eyes and disarming charm,

left my little cardiac with enough harm.

Tearing eyes looks very sly but his heart

is as sweet as a pie !!

When I met I already had a guy

who was "TDH" but he was "ITH"

(Intelligent , Talented & Humorous)

So I bid him a goodbye I knew we will come near by...

Spruced up hair and formal attire

'not approachable on his face but I want to be disturbed

he desired... :-D

Days went , weeks past by just exchanging glimpse, the 1st semester went by :-)

1st sem we rarely talked just shared smiles and few guffaws when someone was mocked.

the alpha of the conversation happened in the communication's class where out of nowhere we sat side by side, and we understood the sender receiver theory at last. Since then it was no looking back I was his queen and he was my jack!! ( don't kill me for this I just want it to sound rhythmic with a little impact)

Though we just befriended hanging out started much later... Meanwhile he formed this 'TRIUMVIRATE' of Octavius , Lepidus & Anthony and I went into forming M.A.D which had Ambika , Divya & Muniba Naushad. :-)

I was cordial but as I was told that I ignited many cold wars because the chicks in class thought I take them not at par...

As I was privileged to go on rides with a "Rock star" that too in his car!! :-P

Second year M.A.D parted ways the hues of friendship gave me depressing blues...

It taught me a lot about about politics and gossips and how groups flip.

Here's come Mr. .D.J. who took my hand and helped me from going astray

He was the first guy to him I told all my truths and lie without thinking what he will think of me whether I'm cunning, sweet or sly. :-)

In the second and the third year we had wandered in every eating joint

from 'Dastarkhwaan ' to Pizza Hut there was nothing that we left...

'Chiken Masala' to 'Tandoori taang' and the 'biryaani' was our very dear jaan!!

By now he was a great friend and mate with whom I so well relate

Since all good things come an end and thus came close the graduating days and 'BANG ON' hit the reality on me that oh!! Girl... 'ITS THE END OF THESE PLAYS :-(

I am stuck in here and he flew far away don't know if ever he'll be back

I wish him all success and colors of life, May he be 'healthy wealthy & wise'

I am bold and he's pure hallmark gold sometime I felt that to him my heart sold

I'have never been able to distinguish the logic behind like and dislike...

Don't even know whether its love or addiction I have for this boy :P

Anyway why are we even discussing it as soon I will be a forgotten story

while he will bask in his glory and I will be all ears to him when he tells me his success story :-D

Whatever may be the fate... All I will cherish this buddy that I have made :-)

I tell him all from my nick names to child hood games

the ducks and the dame!!!

Among the countless he's the priceless

even though I loose all arguments and debate

We are best of chumps and we shall always remain

I enjoy with him so much be it any game though at times I'm so lame.

I can catch up with him almost anywhere be it CCD, Barista or that "Pan wale ki" lane.

Said a lot written as much even though I have a lot to say and munch but I know

"LESS IS MORE" or else it will loose the punch.

I know it's still not complete but I will keep it crisp and end it here.

And would just say...

"In these 3 years a lot was taught event more learnt

I understood how to take things and how to bent,

friendship in college came to my knowledge.

Aging with year and staying young with peers

messing things around and working on it to clear

a bike to ride, a shoulder to rest and a buddy to share

and say YES... I care."

To the boy I met though I realize it's him he left... :-)

Castle of Sand!

Like any other 23 year old I dream of making it big in life, and I would be lying if I say I don’t want name and fame (But all for good reasons). I want to be everything that I’m not. I’m a free spirited dreamer who just doesn’t dreams but wishes to make them all true one day. With all the aspirations and ambitions in me I have my vices too. I tend to take things too easy and get lazy at time (very Nawabi trait! Thanks to being born and brought up in Lucknow). But this never stopped me from thinking about what I want to be.

A dancer, performer, writer, painter, traveler, a food gourmet, a film critic and a director are the things galore I want to be. By now you must have judged me how aptly I fit into the CONFUSED GENERATION BANDWAGON. And here I start my list of what I want to be…

I want to be a dancer and learn all forms of it in the world and stage such a scintillating performance that’s leaves my audience spellbound and awestruck. I want to be socialist so that I remove all the stigmas and taboos from our society and make it a better place to live. I want to tell people that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL LIVE IT… And INDIA IS A PLACE OF CULTURES ENRICH IT!!!

I want to act and perform like Nandita Das and Smitha Patil and be like Marilyn Monroe. I want to do character roles like Seema Biswas and Shabana Azmi at one hand and on the other do roles like Geet full of chutzpah in ‘JAB WE MET’, and play Anne Hathway in ‘DEVIL WEARS PRADA’.

I want to go to FTII and study where Rajkumar Hirani and Om Puri studied. Make films that become benchmarks in parallel cinema yet will be hailed as commercial hit. I want to live my life to the fullest and enjoy each day.

I want to go abroad and study films and filmography with Stephen Spielberg, Woody Allen, buy a house in Beverly Hills’ and Hollywood. I wish to share silver screen with Julia Roberts and light up the theater with our electrifying smiles. :P I also want to romance Richard Gere  amd make love to Johnny Depp.

Before I age and grow old I also want to publish my biography which has my experiences and maverick ideas and I would name it. ‘NO STRINGS ATTACHED’-my people and me!

I want to make my parents proud and give them everything that sacrificed for me so that I can have the best of everything. I want to fall in love and enjoy in bliss.

In short I want my life to be satisfied and contended. So that on my grave the epitaph says.

                                    “LIVED & LOVED

                                     LIFE & FRIENDS

                                        DARE & DID

                                   TILL THE VERY END”

Sinfully me...

Like any other about to get graduated student my days are dull and have a lingering lull... There is so much going in my mind yet the mind and actions fail to fall in sync. My 3 years in college have been great and gloomy with my highs and low... a little hay and a little ho!!

Suddenly all seem to change I see people around me who are ambitious not that I'm less but they belong to the rare species who are focused. ( I wonder how I still feel confused zonked and tranced) Well you cannot understand my plight till you go through it yourself... "BALLS!!! to all those who have the guts to day I UNDERSTAND" Hello... you don't have to sympathetic to me at all... I will fight it my way... I might be weak with arms and ammunition yet  I have a firm believe that I will get through hard times. I know for a fact the initial days or the first step is always is the most difficult for every great person in life... Be it Albert Eisenstein or Ambika Chandra. In the journey so far I realized I have given myself least importance to myself... not because I thought I was worthless (I'm every bit LO'real!!! Yes.. I'm worth it.) but I believed in the importance of others in my life. My 1st mistake in my life so far has been this... though you learn from your mistakes but this is one mistake I would never like to mend. People give me happiness and being around them makes me even more happy. It makes my life more lucid and simple.

Next was falling in love... I didn't know I have a low self esteem if I love somebody and the irony of the life is that " I'AM NO EXCEPTION to him" "He has given nobody a RIGHT on his life" to be honest I am not even asking for the right nor I want to be an exception...But people should realize that Words hurt more than actions and a scar given my words always stay with you no matter you move on in life or you don't. There is nothing like moving on in life its just acceptance of the situation. You know that a consequence or an instance can never turn in your favor leaves you uneasy and uncomfortable, leaving you depressed and stressed. But the day reality sinks in that you you are looking for is unachievable you experience with yourself. and thats ACCEPTANCE!!!  The war that is on within you ends you find solace with the fact that its pointless running after something that doesn't has a dead end. :-) 

I have come to realize that I don't take things personally well not true I do a lot of things but I thinks it futile to think about it hold in against someone and use it later. All these things are too trivial in life thus I firmly believe in the concept of 'FORGET OR FORGIVE' since whats done cannot be undone and whats said can never we unsaid. Not that things don't hurt me or I am some kind of saint in life but I have never those kinds things I am too involved in do affect me a lot but that's how life is. It will never give you what you want never serve you what you wish... People say it gives you what you deserve... By the time you get what you deserve you have past the stage to desire and wish.

I know whoever reading this might say that I'm depressed. Yes I am!! But then everybody  goes through such stages in life who doesn't... But this period has taught me so much about myself, people around me, who care and who don't. Whose genuine and whose fake.It will sound very archaic but the book 'The Alchemist' say that "If you want genuinely want something then the whole universe conspires to give you that." Likewise I say that when you are low, depressed, broken and irritated the whole world conspires to make you even more low and depressed. There is a lot in me to vent all that has been going through inside me for the past 2 decades. I will relate you instances both happy and sad my believes and my fads.

For the first time I'am actually introspecting myself off limits and through and through... I think at this time its important, it's now or never... In the process of introspection I have learnt detachment as in how and when to detach , delete and format things in life though Its hard to practice in real the virus named 'ATTACHMENT' is eating me inside out I know it will leave me hollow yet the anti-virus or the anecdote for it I fail to apply.  Moreover I realized that I fail to follow trend a pattern or a routine I don't know how to tackle with this because I still don't think its a problem. Its a very essential part of me and my personality.I came to know of a self that can do anything and everything if I'm enough motivated.I know I haven't written something new yet these were my view.

Rendezvous

Statutory Warning : This piece of fiction is full on facts

captured by the IRIS of my eye. :-P

Written in good humor and Intentions just for the FUN of it.

Go READ and ENJOY!!! :-D

3 saal mein kya kuch na badla,school se college badla...

Uniforms aur skirts ko salwar kameez aur chunni mein badla.

2 pigtails ponies with ribbon aur blunt hair with band ko,

Khoole Baalo, Rajor cut aur Fringes mein badla. ;-)

Office Bearers ke orders aur delegation ko,

senior ki ragging aur bullying mein badla

JAANE INN 3 SAAL KYA KYA BADLA!!!

Auto ne cycle ko hawa ke paiso ne,sawaari ke kiraayon mein badla...

LC M.G Road ko Amity V.K.C mein badla.

Backbenchers below average logo ko,

pseudo intellectuals mein badla.

Gaon ki choriya bani BEHENJI TURNED MOD,

and class ki babes said ki BHAI IT'S HOT!!!

1st year mein sabko kuch tha banna...chahe ho

ACTOR, ANCHOR ya P.R Consultant banne ki TAMMANNA.

Teesre saal tak aate aate laga ki

.bhai ab hai counselor se milna :-P

Pehle jo tha ALLAH TAUBA,

ab vo hai ENJOY AUR FUN karne ka ek mauka.

Pehle bas RAM PRAKASH & SONS ki bani hui uniforms mein zindagi bitagi,

ab LIVE'S, TOMMY HILLFIGER aur BURBERRY ki choices bhi kam pad jati :-D

Pehle jo dhyaan trigonometry aur ratio proportion mein lagta tha,

ab vo ladkiyon ke CLEAVAGE aur ladko ke ASS ko judge karne mein bhatakta...

12th tak jo karte the RELATIONSHIP MEIN JEENE MARNE KI BAATIEN,

Graduation ke 2 saal khatam hone tak ONE NIGHT STANDS cool ban jaate.

Namaste, Pranam, Hello karne wale log

aaj,What's up??? aur What the fuck!!!keh kar kaam chalate.

Confused aur wired log aapne aap ko BISEXUAL batate,:-P

aur pata nahi 3 saalo mein kitni FIZOOL ki Beena sar paer

ki THEORIES and PHILOSOPHY de jaate.

Dosti par mar mitne waale,khoon paseena ek kar jaane wale,

asaani se BACKSTABBING aur BITCHING kar jate hai.

CURRENT AFFAIRS aur NEWS se update rehne wale log

eventually, GOSSIP MONGERS ban jate hai

BLEMISHES, PIMPLES aur PORES se 'eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewww' karne wale log,

TATTOO aur PIERCINGS so FASHION batate hai!!"

ANYTHING FOR YOU MA'AM" aur "5 POINT SOMEONE" padhne wale log

inhe CHARLES DICKENS aur EMILY BRONTE jaise CLASSIC authors se compare kar jaate hai.

"Oh!!! I looooooooooooooovvvv to read" kehne wale log

'TWILIGHT SERIES' ko apna AWESOME collection batate hai :P"

Mujhe kapdo latho se toh matlab nahi hai" kehte the jo kal,

aaj CUTS, SLITS, STILETOES aur FALLING NECKS batane wale 'STYLE GURUS' ban jaate hai.

70's ke retro look waale lambe baal log ekdum se

SPIKED HAIR, aur PUNK ho jaate hai...

Aur jo with time CHANGE nahi ho paate hai

vo LOOSERS kehlate hai.

Bloated Egos, Superiority Complex aur I'm NOBODY jaise log,

Apne aap ko SENSIBLE ADULTS batate hai.

Boost aur Horlicks peene waale log aaj,

SEX ON THE BEACH aur LBW ko"Oh!! What DRINK"!!! batate hai ;-) :-P

Havan aur Agni kund ka DHUA SUFFOCATING sa tha lagta

wahi aaj HOOKEH ka SMOKE FRAGRANCE hai lagta.

Being late is the new definition of PUNCTUALITY,

aur IMPATIENCE bana naye TOLERANCE ka funda.B-)

SPORTS, BASKETBALL aur HOBBIES bas baatien reh jaati hai,

kyuki sara time toh FASHION, MAKE UP aur BLOW DRY karne mein nikal jatti hai :-)

Bhramcharya ka palan karne walo ko ekdum se!!

LSD karna aa jata hai...

MASS.COM ka matlab bas PRINT MEDIA ko gariyana

aur MOVIES dekhna reh jata hai... (lol)

Pehle jo samaye HARD WORK aur PADHAI hota tha ab vo,

car mein baith kar AANKHEN SEKNE mien nikal jata hai.

Pehle jo kehte the 'GOSH AMITY IS FAAAAAR',

aaj unhe VKC TO MOC JOGGER'S PARK lagta mere YAAR!!

Pehle 90% was WOW!! WHATTA SCORE...

aur Aaj 9 Pointers are SUCH A BORE!! ;-)

Pehle we wanted everything to be at par,

but aaj sirf 300/- ke liye ho jati hai MAAR!!!

3 saal khatam hone tak TRICONE ka chautha cone ban jayega,

bas fir kya COLLEGE KHATAM hote hi sab kuch SHUNYA ho jayega.

LOST & FOUND

' When I get older losing my hair many years from now.

Will you be sending me valentine, birthday greetings and bottle of wine...

Will you still need me, will you still feed me! when I'm sixty-four.'

MEN"O"PAUSE

Just don't freak out its just not another biology lecture. Not even the agony aunt section nether i am trying to tell you the psychological and vital stats of middle aged women... ( I know the title will force you to think so)

" Aurat ko pav ki jhooti samajhna chod do"(Its a dialog from some yesteryear movie)

Yes indeed I am talking about our very much prevalent "PATRIARCHAL SOCIETY" male dominance, power and superiority complex. It all started to monitor families more over it was about the family tree that followed which is why the oldest male member had the power to take major decisions to make life simple and methodical. Rules were different for different families. Its basic objective was to follow a routine and have discipline in life.

But as lifestyle got more pacey homo sapiens, typical to there behavior are champions in escaping things. Like the rituals nowadays have become more simplistic even more are celebrated twice in just one year! Moreover this modifying trend and escapist behaviors is now seen everywhere even in are daily mundane chores. This is what we women have been the victim of ...

First place a woman is a symbol of power, force,love and affection. We worship her in many forms like 'Durga', 'Kali' , even when we want wealth and prosperity its Goddess 'Laxmi' whose worshiped before Lord 'Kuber comes in the picture. Then why do have such hypocritical society with double standards, where at one place we give her status of the Almighty and also keep the odacity to harass, abuse and molest her.

I might not be the one give the absolute decision, neither have I researched enough but I chose to speak my mind with perception and knowledge of my own. Patriarchal Society was just pictured and coined not to objectify women or manhandle them. It was just to protect them and allow them to do chores suited for them not because they are weak, but its a proven fact that physically they are not meant to do certain things. As men they are totally misinterpreted it and we have purda-system, female fetuscide and infanticide.

Many conventional writers will freak out at the boldness of my statement but I think its time to say it and face it. other than eve's teasing, lecherous gaze,just being felt in public are the most humiliating experiences experienced by almost every women. But whats most humiliating is when that same women whose your mother, wife and sister is completely shunned for five days of the month.( Its just a situation I am mentioning have been among the luckiest one by not facing it) Now my logic to it is that those five days are for her to rest even the body purges itself. Its like giving her a small vacation from her daily chores. But again the theory of misinterpretation comes in, we absolutely shun her to be in complete isolation not even allowed to worship, why would God have a problem with it when he himself created it. :)

One more dominant characteristic of this kind of society is they die for a son to carry on the lineage and the heir to the property. The most hilarious concept I have ever understood. What will the son do with the million and zillion of sperms when he will not the a women to bore it. After God its the immortal women are the ones who gives life and birth and ironically still seen as the fairer sex or the suppressed one.

So men 'o' pause and together with the support of both the genders we can practice equality and not just talk equality.

To Die For...

Tic Tac Tic !!!

Well!!! its not the clock I am talking about, neither its that silly game of cross and zeros.

I am talking about those sexy heels which make a women look seductive and adds to that omph... factor

Silly thought I know... but its quite enticing as well (in men's perspective of course it is ;))

First thing that pops in my mind is the sex diva 'MERLIN MONROE ' her white halter dress with a visibly evident cleavage accessoried with those great pair of jimmy choo pencil heels. Is so avid in my mind :) and just a wild thought but in my opinion it was the heels that made her look so stunning and suggestive. It was only that heels that accentuated her very shapely calves and made them look so desirous . Had she been in a normal peep toe or wedge heel she would have looked so ordinary. But the whole ensemble with her luscious red lips and a pout to die for and halter backless dress and don't forget those heels in my opinion has been the most seductive and orgasmic female ever. ( Just her mere glimpse can make a man hard)

Lets not restrict ourselves to yesteryear ladies we will explore nut before that talking of celluloid and 70 mm silver screen it was Hollywood that gave sex to the film industry worldwide and were the first to make it so buyable ... with not just raunchy explicit and hot scenes but otherwise... And heels played an integral part in this even classics like "sound of music" and "my fair lady" it was out an out a heely affair with those drappy gowns well covered necklines very elegantly put accessories was indeed a fine mix but it used to be the pointed pencil shoes in those shiny colors wine red and ebony black that made the entire look so grand.

Heels are commodity every women craves for and its makes the men to crave for her ;) Thanks to Versace and Armani that they widened their horizons and went beyond just designing outfits. Thanks to Gucci for those lovely boots and every well known designer who now dabbles in shoes. From flats to wedge heels, from block to pencil heels and kitten heels to peep toe there is a wide range for girls and ladies to satiate their thirst to look and feel sexy.

Now you not just need a sexy or a lacy lingerie to impress your man even heels could do wonders... :)

so...

to woo a man it's not silk and ooze its simple ' JUST STILETTOS' ;)